| i hate you. i hate living with you. i hate feeling like shit because of you. get out of my house. you stupid selfish undeserving lazy bastard. |
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| i got my cell phone and student ID and transit pass and work ID and debit card and $32 stolen from my pocket at the locker room of the gym today. i am now rather impossible to contact. and to that i give a big:
"FUCK YOU YOU STUPID IMMATURE BITCHES!!!"
i hope the CTA is serious about punishing people who use someone else's u-pass.
i hope you get fucked in the ass. |
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| today sucks.
my mouth hurts.
i'm stupid.
i have a 1" long metal rod through my tongue.
i can't talk. or eat. or swallow. i look and sound retarded.
like a dog with peanut butter on the roof of it's mouth.
next semester is going to kill me.
i think i might get a second job.
i go find out tomorrow.
i just want to go home, curl up and cry.
i start moving in 10 days. and i officially begin living there in 15.
i don't know what to do. i feel rather overwhelmed.
i want scool to be over.
but i have at the very least one more semester. |
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| i'm going on a crusadse. against the stupid 10.5% taxes we have to pay on nearly everything we buy in the city. maybe it's not 10.5% on food, but it is on everything else. sometimes 12%. or more. i didn't get a raise in my pay to corespond to the raise in the cost of living. so i have to take matters into my own hands. i will still spend money on things that are absolutely necessary. i will still pay my rent and my heat and light bills. i will still pay off my credit cards. i will still make occasional trips to the grocery store. but more likely the cheaper ethnic food stores instead of the big chain grocery. no more whole foods market just for fun. no more delicious vegan cake slices. even with the discount cards i will be spending less time at jewel and dominick's. and more time at the fruiteria. i still have to do my laundry. but i have to save the change left over from when i bought other things. and throw everything in one big load. i have to cook at home and bring my leftovers as lunches to school/work. i have to refill my water bottle or get free beverages from work instead of just stopping into walgreens and buying something. even the $.99 cans of iced tea. i had to forego buying food on a school field trip to the bewilderment of my classmates. and professor.
i just signed a lease for $1,000 a month. split between the 2 of us. plus bills. i still haven't found a second job. i still haven't been promoted. i feel kind of like a jerk. but i have to take all my stuff with me when i move out. i can't afford to buy new things. furniture. dishes. kitchen stuff. curtains. foodstuffs. i feel the worst about having to take the dish draining rack from the sink. but i just can't afford to buy anything new.
what have i gotten myself into? |
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| moving again.
957 N. Oakley.
#1
may 1st.
with the boyfriend. and the cat. and the couches we have to go pick up. with the truck we have to rent. for a tousand dollars. a month. plus deposit. on my sallary of less than $9 an hour.
fantastic. |
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